| Monday, May 10th, 2004 |
| 7:56 pm |
tired
Yeah, so I'm tired, and I don't want to write my Allegri paper. I think I need a diet. I'm going to detox for two days, and then start one. Let's hope it works. Alright then, if anyone has any good dieting strategies, feel free to comment. Later. |
| Tuesday, May 4th, 2004 |
| 2:46 pm |
fat tuesday
Well, that would make sense since I'm fat and it's Tuesday. Let's see....hmm, yet another crappy day in the week. m The only days should be Friday's and Saturdays. All others must be eliminated. |
| Monday, May 3rd, 2004 |
| 10:13 pm |
So yeah....I'm running for v.p. of the school-cheers to dave! :)-talking to my ex-adam, right now, so ttyl. peace. |
| Monday, April 26th, 2004 |
| 9:11 pm |
Scuba Steve
Well, I don't write here very often, but I just wanted to let ya'll know that Steve Pellechia is awesome. He's given me about 10 or 12 cds to listen to and they've really expanded my musical horizons. Cheers to Steve. Peace (yo). |
| Tuesday, April 20th, 2004 |
| 9:17 pm |
springtime
What wonderful weather we're having! That's all I have to say. Well, not really, but I don't have to tell you people anything! |
| Saturday, April 17th, 2004 |
| 11:48 pm |
Georgie-O
Yeah, so tonight I babysat...it's been a while. And the kids I watched were perfect. They spoke when spoken to, watched a movie, ate dinner, and went to bed with a systematic precision. They were freakin robots! When I was their age, I didn't experience the kind of televised childhood that they are. It drives me crazy how on such a beautiful day, these kids would prefer to watch a thirteen inch Panasonic t.v. then enjoy the fresh spring air, play a game, or partake in any sort of arts&crafts. They had every line of "Mr.Deeds" memorized (a 5 year old and a 4th grader)-and still neither one of them missed a nano second of that movie. They never became too excited or in any way upset. They weren't cold but showed no sign of warmth. Hmmm.....1984 much? |
| Sunday, February 29th, 2004 |
| 3:38 pm |
...
My computer took valium again...slowest thing ever...anywhoo...just wanted to say hi...i don't do that too much..i don't care to speak my problems to you right now...so maybe later...ciao. |
| Wednesday, February 25th, 2004 |
| 4:14 pm |
4:14
so it's 4:14 on wednesday afternoon. I have homework to do. I don't want to do it. I'm not doing it. I'll go to Ryan's house now. |
| Wednesday, February 18th, 2004 |
| 12:43 pm |
home sick
I'm home from school today...feeling a bit under the weather. Well, a whole lot more than a bit to be honest-fever, stuffy nose and ears, body aches, dizziness...hotness and coldness at the same time. But I watched Finding Nemo and I'm feeling a little better. I'm tired, but not really that tired. I don't know...I'm just sick. But anyway, just wanted to let ya'll know. btw-loved Finding Nemo! |
| Tuesday, February 10th, 2004 |
| 9:56 pm |
February 10
First of all...no one says FEB-RU-ARY! Well then, on with my show. I just came home from practice-we leave for Dallas in two days....I think about that and want to vomit. It's the biggest competition in the world. I'm serious-there is nothing bigger than Dallas. Comforting right? I'm also sick from Baltimore...sooo not good. I can deal though....it's only four days. (of Hell) I'm unhappy. No, not just with cheerleading or anything, or everything. I just don't feel good about anything anymore. And when I do...it's very superficial, no matter how long I try to make it last. But then again, how can I be unhappy and care/like/whatever you want to call it someone so much? (ryan)...damnit...who has the answers? |
| Monday, February 9th, 2004 |
| 9:23 pm |
Baltimore
So it's Monday night...I just arrived home from practice a little while ago. BECAUSE WE'RE NATIONAL CHAMPIONS!! SMALL SENIOR AT THE AMERICAN OPEN!!! Way to go guys! I was sooooooooooo freakin' excited! Three days until Dallas-then I'm just gonna die. WISH ME LUCK! Alright...well, I'm sick, and listening to B.S. Don't you know that we're ( STAR ATHLETICS SMALL SENIORS) toxic?? Oh baby. Current Mood:  predatory |
| Thursday, February 5th, 2004 |
| 11:12 pm |
11:12
Thursday night it is. Tommorow I leave for the American Masters in Baltimore, Maryland. Wish me luck. I just took a shower. My hair is wet. Tommorow is National Heart Awareness Day, so wear red. I don't make the rules, I just follow them. Oh how I wish that weren't true. |
| Monday, February 2nd, 2004 |
| 7:57 pm |
turkey sandwich
What's better than a turkey sandwich and some Rent for dinner in front of the computer?(A lot)...but Rent is awesome. Anyway...is cold cut turkey healthy? Someone tell me, because I'm not quite sure. |
| 5:51 pm |
mundane monday
It's 10 to 6 and pitch black outside....damn, I can't wait for summer. Today we(me/I) took the history exam for Zisa...what a blast. Now I have to study for sociology, and quite frankly...I just don't want to...rebel without a cause. So yeah...I have to go study now. Peace (I mean that in the way like "I hope you find some inner peace after reading my lj.") Current Mood:  stressed |
| Saturday, January 31st, 2004 |
| 9:29 am |
morning sunshine
Oh yeah...it's 9:29 and I'm awake for what else? Practice. mmmm...gotta love it. Enjoyed my last night....went out to rent movies with monkey, came home, watched, snacked, cuddled...loved it. My kinda night. Alright, well, I can barely see, as it is the morning and my eyes are still half closed but I thought I'd tell you a little somethin' somethin'-fo shizzle....peace out yo. Current Mood:  tired |
| Thursday, January 29th, 2004 |
| 10:32 pm |
Hello boys and girls...it's 10:33..and I'm feeling like my dog's piss in the snow right now. I can't say I like a thing about myself...nice thought, eh? I feel like everything I do is wrong..every choice I make just ends up hurting me. Oh c'mon, it's not a feeling, it's the truth-and I hate it. I hate what's become of me, and how I go from loving life and flying high on cloud 9 to what I am now. I don't control it..and what can anybody else do? Talking to others doesn't help me like myself...I'm set in my ways, and even though I want to change it, I can't. I feel so powerless...I'm tired....later. |
| Wednesday, January 28th, 2004 |
| 11:02 pm |
later on
It's eleven now...not really 11. I'm feeling better after having talked with Ry...sometimes I don't even have to tell him what's really wrong and he makes it better anyway. (what a girlie thing to say)...oh well...but I have studied a small amount for tommorow and I'm alright with that..and I'm wearing pj's to school tommorow. So there. Goodnight. Current Mood:  calm |
| 8:45 pm |
wednesday
It's 8:45 on Wednesday night...just got home from dinner with the monkey, ron, and james...while I only knew I was going out to dinner with Ryan....thanks for telling me sweetie. I had an ok time with them...but today I just had a hard time. That's what I'm going to call it-a hard time. These hard times come more frequently than they used to..does that make me crazy? depressed? - I don't know...but everyone else is so eager to diagnose me. These hard times make me hate myself..my body, my voice, my personality, life choices..everything. I'm crying for "nothing" ....but really, it's everything. Talking to friends isn't always easy...or your boyfriend who tells you how "there" he is for you..but never really reaches out. He doesn't understand what he's doing to me...I care about him so much..."like" him so much, always think of him....but I feel like we're not equal. So I'm scared, very scared. I can't help it but I'm scared of instability..so much so that the little piece I have (him) I'm paranoid will break like ice in the dry cold. My eyes sting, and I keep blinking away my "nothing" tears...I blink away everything-I have to. Otherwise, I'd seem completley depressed. Don't get me wrong...I see bright days too...just not as many lately. |
| Tuesday, January 27th, 2004 |
| 7:56 pm |
the evening
Alright...it's Tuesday night. I haven't written in a while on lj because of midterms and the busiest schedule EVER. I don't really feel good either for that matter.....woe is me. See? I still don't feel like writing...I'm just saying something to say something....sometimes we need that. I'm out. |
| Sunday, January 25th, 2004 |
| 10:35 am |
morning
It's 10:35...I'm up and have been for an hour now. Nothing really interesting..talking to Ryan a little and then off to the gym and then to Manalapan, New Jersey to compete. (Not fun) But yeah...I has a strange dream about seeing my dad's apartment for the first time and ehh...i don't feel like typing all about it but if you care, you'll ask. Ok time to get dressed. Ryan makes me happy right now. Happy am I. Later dude. Current Mood:  happy |
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